Just recently, life came at me pretty fast. My entire life in Prague has flashed before my eyes. It’s surreal to think that I’ve been living in Europe for nearly 3.5 years. There have been ups and lots of downs to balance it all out. I’ve found love, heartbreak, and have had countless experiences that have helped shape me into the person that I am today. I’ve grown more in these past 3 and a half years than I ever have in my entire life. That is why it’s so hard to come to terms with the fact that I’ll soon be saying goodbye.
My one-way ticket home is dated for September 25th, just 5 days after my 27th birthday. Although I had been anticipating this moment for awhile now, the reality of moving back hit me like a ton of bricks. Once the decision became more than just an “idea”, reality sunk in. I will be departing the place I call home in just a little over 1 month. I must say goodbye to this European life that I’ve created for myself. Although I’ve always been open with my struggles of living in a foreign country, I will miss this city more than you know. I will miss hearing three different languages at once, I will miss passing by the Prague Castle on my tram rides, and most importantly – I will miss the people who stay behind. Prague has given me deep connections with countless people. I fear that I won’t find these unique connections in America. I fear that people won’t be as open and knowledgeable about the world as they are here. I fear that this experience has changed me so much that I won’t know how to fit in anymore. Although these fears and doubts follow me back to the U.S., I remain steadfast in the belief that this experience has shaped me into the person I was always meant to be.
So as I prepare to say goodbye to the city, I promise to make the most out of the time that I have left. I will visit my favorite pubs, bars, and cafes and make sure to catch one last glimpse of all the famous Prague landmarks. I am 100% sure I will be back one day, but I know that it will never feel quite the same as it does in this moment. So, for now, I will soak up the beauty of this city and remind myself that this isn’t really goodbye, but “see you later”.